Imagining

Carole texted me today. They were listening to a children’s artist that both of our families listened to years ago, when the children were babies.

A particular song took her back to the year 2006.

There are lots of songs that take me back to particular moments in time. The way the light slants across a room can take me back too.

Talking about the past ultimately led to imagining the future.

She made the comment that in 10 short years her house will be empty of children (if they all go off to college somewhere). 10 years from today we will be counting down to the boys turning 21.

I have has much trouble remembering the daily life with 3 year old twins as I do imagining them getting ready to turn 21.

Thinking back and forward always makes me a bit wistful and unsettled. I feel sad at those years gone. Did I savor them enough? I think mostly I was trying to survive them.

Am I savoring these days enough? Maybe we never can savor as we live through the moment. We are caught up in the day and its particular struggles. Maybe the best we can do is to notice the moments as we live them. Maybe that is enough for the moment. Then one day, 10 years from now I can sit and think back and savor them with the tinge of time past.